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Full Moon of January

January 4th, 2007 (02:34 pm)

current mood: relaxed
current song: Benzine - Rammstein

Was amazing, the energy mamma moon put forth was intense. The crowd was rather large for a weekday. I am still trying to figure out why there was a girl with purple fairy wings there, but I think there was alot of acid or shrooms floatin around, but whatever. The negative ones left early in the night, So we were able to raise some good energy afterwards.
I sat for a while and meditated on Inanna...Im devoting myself to her. I feel her calling and connection...she yanked me out of my body last night, then when I came back I danced as if I werent me for a while. A few people noticed...I definitly noticed, more swaying and less shimmy. But it was fun. 
Ms. Imani brought out the singing bowls and OH MY GODDESS, the alst hour was amazing, I felt like I was going to float away again. yowza.

So I really need to get off this computer and go run some errands, I just dont wanna...

I had a dream last night , or rather, this morning, of Tim upset and crying, so I texted him today and he is having a very depressed day. I dont like when he is sad, Im now picking up on the energy and Im trying to send him some good, but I dont know if its working, If we get together later Ill reiki him, he starts therapy next week. Im glad he is going back to therapy, glad something I said got through to him. I just want him to be happy again. If we dont get together tonight we will do something either sunday or monday, so thats cool too. I understand where he is comming from, sometimes when your depressed you dont want anyone around..no matter who they are. I did start softly crying when I was on the phone with him, I dont think he noticed. Or he didnt say if he noticed. I think it might have been from me feeling his sadness, or just because I miss the shit out of him.
Since I invoked Inanna the other night, I have been feeling alot more and experiencing much much more then before. She is such a powerfull Goddess. Eventually, I want to work with Tiamat. Another goddess I feel a pull towards. Whats up with me and the extremely ancient ones...lol...

I cleaned my room....yay for me...I can see my pretty hardwood floors. 

OK, its time to get off my ass and get going.


Posted by: Achbar (achbarr)
Posted at: January 5th, 2007 04:43 am (UTC)

This sounds exciting that you can have such strong feelings. I try similar things and get nothing...zilch...nothing Nothing all. I congratulate you

Posted by: The one and only Jilla Bean (mandrake_queen)
Posted at: January 5th, 2007 12:26 pm (UTC)

Sometimes I know dont wether to look at it like a curse or a blessing, its a pain in the ass sometimes when you are trying to get owrk done and you flash on someone, then start crying for no reason,lol.

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